Purgatory

Survived Monday been a wreck all weekend and Monday...  It's early Tuesday morn haven't slept since Wednesday maybe an hr here or there... They still won't let me see her. Worst thing is the station has seen an infestation rise of bugs... Wonder if the lab rats r at it again.... Kat i miss u babe y did u do this to your self....

Lost again

Sad sad night.... Won first place in bowling tonight then got a call.... I'm sobbing here sorry, Kat just tried to commit suicide.... Blood everywhere, just omg..... I don't know what to do.... I feel so bad I couldn't even been there for her I'm a galaxy away and my baby was going thru some bad times and just...

Late night entry 7-8-2158

How are u supposed to live without the one when u can't even find them?

Home

I look to right no ones there, I look to the left no ones there... I look up and it's the same.... I'm so tired of being lonely and alone. I give anything to have an argument over spilled milk.

Mission accomplished

Mission accomplished, money was made, everyone made it out. No one died I guess I'd call it a win. Now I get to go Home to an empty house :( no one to celebrate with :( something's gotta give

Clawson

Crazy day, tons of people and a long mission.5 hrs to go and this ones over phew. Just wish I had someone to come home to :(

Blah

Yea that about sums it up..... Mittens really gut punched me mentally. "Stop chasing the past she could give two shits about you, and she'll probably destroy the Astroliner with you in it."
I hate we're I'm at in my life. Great job, good money, I have two places to stay, never bored. Just lonely and it would be nice to have a girl friend to spend the summer with. But every time I meet someone, I get used or they get chased away by the crew.... I'm just going to cry myself to sleep again, and hope for the worst. Not to mention I got a mission in less that 34 hrs... Sigh... I just want to be happy. It's not fare