Can't sleep

Haven't had any contact with Kat in 2 weeks, and only received one letter... I think  losing my mind. I want to hear her voice so bad, I want to hold her hand so bad, I want to kiss her so bad.... I'm in so much pain from missing her. Kat I love u 

lost.......

Just feeling lost tonight.....

Nothing feels real nothing feels right...... I miss her so much, shes like air I can't breath with out her....... I want to go back to a place in my life where everything seemed alright.... I miss her so damn bad, and I haven't had any contact with her..... its killing me like radiation poisoning. Id rather have cancer or take a deadly disease from a child then deal with the waiting pain of seeing my baby. It always seems who ever I touch or try to be with, I just ruin them... maybe that gypsye form the Saturn Station was right I'm as surely cursed for the rest of my life never to fall in love. I can only help other and never take the benefits........ Day's like this I wish it was me that was sucked out into space and not that family

Damn finally day off

Holy mastacholio made it to a day off. All week I've been thinking about my baby.. I love her so much. I hope she's ok, I know she's on that behavior BS, I'm gonna call tomorrow and just ask if there is anything I can do to help her... I miss her so bad it hurts. Hell today a customer came in and I thought it was her I lost control for a few seconds and this lady was like wtf wrong with u. I told mittens she's like pull your self together Captain!!

Just left the gym gonna get a juice "veggie" :) and probably check FB and crash and enjoy my day off tomorrow. I know I have to retro fit the Astroliner for this weekend. Got I miss u Kat. I miss u so much babe! I'm gonna write u a letter tomorrow, love you honey :)

Kinda sad :/

Really missing my baby. Still can't see her yet, I'm gonna write her a letter tonight. Mail it tomorrow, :( I thought I would be able to see her Saturday but no go. She's on behavior contract :( probably because she sent me that secret message. I feel bad she's in trouble because of me, I still feel its my fault she's in this predicament. If I would of helped her then we would of been together :/ doesn't matter I love her to death, and I will be her support! I'm gonna be like a summoning from final fantasy total bad ass

Food court

It's bad when u feel miserable when in a food court everyone is sitting with someone eating and I have the table to myself.... Kat I miss u wish u where here babe  

Another late night

Finally tired, just left the gym. Long day I have tomorrow off I hope I get to hear from my baby tomorrow and then see her on Saturday :3 yes I know I say I miss her to much but it's da truth!! I hope she liked everything I sent her. I hope she uses the diary I got for her. And the hello kitty stickers I put on it too lol. Can't wait to hear her voice and feel her touch again :) I love u Kat I'm counting the day babe :3

Lunch time

I miss Kat so bad I read her letters just to remind me of her voice :)