Dreams

Had the best dream I think I've ever had with Kat. It was New Year's Eve, our family & friends came together, everyone one had a great time, me and her even salsa'd in front of everyone :) good food and people, and me, Kat, Mark,Casey, Jeffery and Mittens all had a photo taken together. It was the couple photo just like when we all went to Disney. I hope this dream come true. I love her so much that. She's always on my mind all the time and I know I'm the right one for her. I know she'll better me and I can help her on her own journey. Gods I miss my baby 

Lonely yet again

Mittens calls it the luv bug bit me, Colleen says I need to drink about it, Mark & Casey better than having a baby.... It's like I can't wait for the night so I can close my eyes to dream about Kat... She's all I can think about. I love her, but I really don't know how she feels about me... It's been so long I fear she forgot who I am. She once told me your not a good man, your a great one. I don't feel so great when I fail everyone around, especially when everyone is getting hurt because of me & my ship... I'm waiting to meet the leader of the Lab Rat Mafia... Her name I heard in a whisper it starts with an R that's I could make out when I was a POW...

Kat I miss u so so so much, I can't eat or sleep with out you.... I've never felt like this towards someone ever. It's like a curse, to love someone so much and you don't know how they feel about you or think.... My fear Is that she has forgotten me, and she will return to her past.. How can I move on or live with that situation. I know my crew will push me to move on and ill never be the same, what will I become ... A monster, a mean person, I don't want to be either one, I want to be happy and next to Kat the rest of my life. I want to grow old with her and let her hold the remote control..

All I know is that when we dream we aren't that far away from each other. 

Lunch time

Order Mediterranean food.... I miss Mac and Cheese nights with Kat :(

Oh I miss her so bad, I can't wait till she's out 

Long day..

All I could think about was Kat. And I had no one to talk to about her :( i miss her so much. Makes me want to cry :/ any day I should be getting a call, is just tearing me apart waiting for her.i really no how a military family feels. And I'm the one in the military :( Kat I love you honey where ever u are I'm sitting by the phone waiting for you sweet heart.

Weird start

Weird start to the day.... My mom scolds me from mars, oh you don't work hard enough?? Tried cleaning the apartment, no luck. I'm missing Kat like more than norm today.... Damn near got killed twice on the way to work.... I miss my baby :( feeling sad today but I'm trying to keep up high spirits for the team. :/ my heart feels heavy today :(

-.-

I miss my baby.. About to fall asleep and dream of her, Kat I love you

Rainy evening

Sitting here watching the rain fall missing my baby... We'll be together again soon.

I love you Kat, I miss u so much, I can't wait to hold you again baby. Hopefully soon :)