Rough road ahead

This month has been a rough all around, I've lost lots of people. Today we is the viewing if my grand ps, I still can't cry or feel bad. I've been stuck in purgatory for weeks and I hate it. Nonot say it will pass but sure doesn't feel like it. I expect something to go wrong today, my life's always full of some excitement. Wish things would of just gone my way :/ had the girl, had the ship, most important had my friends. I still have nonot I hope I don't make him mad, his a good friend I know he's a robot but I think he has a heart. He's very human to me.