Can't sleep

Ugh can't sleep... I think I'm an emotional mess sometime yea I guess its the last thing a captain should be, but damn. I've been cheated on, lied to by lovers and friends, stabbed in the back, things ripped away from, how am I still standing, what keeps me going?

Gods help me If I become a monster, I never want to be a monster or bad guy, I don't like to hurt people but they like to hurt me :(.

I think I'm gonna take a litte drive around Jupiter or something maybe Saturn

Long night ahead

So yea..... Aqward. I guess when u try to meet someone on common grounds are the grounds really common? My Ex is here and I'm lost, angry, hopeless, happy, sad confused and really wish kinda maybe someone would attack the station......

:| I don't know some time I wish someone would just step up and save me. It's like when we found the astroliner on that planet, I might never of made it out of there what then?

I'm just confused i guess, especially that I've been told I'm a heart less person. Next time a freighter full of kids is in trouble i won't stop the side winder torpedo from hitting it. Actually I will I'll put on my space suit and jump in front of it. Gods why do I end up like this every night,

Someone save me :| "please"

Wow the moon is really close tonight