Shield generator

Sucks when u have a major break thru, and there only two people that can celebrate it.... Nonot and myself... We just unlocked a new tech 

Work out

Just me and nonot, twerking away. He still trying to get me date... Told him to give up already

Christmas

It's been two years since the attack on the station thankful for my good friends for pulling me thru hard times 

Eh

Sitting on my couch and just bad memories keep hitting me like a baseball bat. I hate this feeling.... I just want it to stop 

It's been over two months and I still can't get that night out of my head :( I car cry any more, I can't feel any more... Am I alive ? Or am I stuck in pergatory... I feel so alone and with the holidays around it makes it worse. 

Down hill

Every thing still sucks.. Why can't things get better.

So my fighter is toast, astroliner is docked for reconditioning. I have no ride to get around. Gonna have to buy a new fighter I really don't want a used one... :( so tired of this shit. I just want one thing to go right in my life, just one thing.... 

Blah :(

Someone please push me down the stairs....

:(

I feel like crap, my heart still hurts after every thing last month. The astroliner is docked, I have nothing to do but think. I miss her so much but she hurt me so bad and I still don't blame her it was the drug.... I just want this feeling to go away I'm tired of feeling pain all the time. I just want it to end .