Home

Home in this shitty apartment. Really starting to hate the human race.... Mission went well just burnt out and tired of people having power over me. I just want it all to end, the pain, the jealous feeling. I just want it all to be dark. Someone once said to me don't talk about death until you have tried to live your life. Well I've tried and tried and tried and I'm tired of picking myself up time and time again. I've given more to people who need help more than anything. I just want it to end

Clemens system

After last night I woke with a weird dream and someone from my past. I wish my memories would leave me alone. Yea I want to Find the one but I want to help people too. I don't want to be a saint I just think people who have nothing and get pushed around deserve something's. And people who steal, cheat and take, deserve the worst.

Tonight we're returning to the station, I'm taking a break for a few weeks but I just want to be happy what ever that is. 

Subway

Picking up food for us and geez the locals in this town no respect for one another why are we protecting them? 

Battle of Gus Station

Originally called in to do a water run has turned into this town needs help from the local bad guys. For once it's not the mafia. Darn locals are so ignorant tho I don't know why I'm helping them? People are starting fights and running yell and calling each other names.

Almost as bad a earth back in the day. Any ways proud to say I got fed up and fired flares into the crowd. 

Clemens system

Well here we are the clemens system. Rodent control here we go. 

Say something

Sitting here in my empty home I wish it would just end. Why did my crew have to save me. If I died who would really care. I just want the pain to stop. 

Ortonville System Mission final

Ortonville was a success we drove off the bad guys, made some new friends and, got money to which was nice.

Sad part I went to check my social media Space Book and its my birthday today. totally forgot all my friends said happy birthday. what really still gets me to this day is my parents who I actually talked to both of them today via video, and they said nothing about my birthday... The only reason they called was to make sure I wasn't hanging around my ex, who's dead anyway. and that my bill are paid up so that my credit isn't bad because my moms going for the senate this year....... wtf 

Breakfast

Ah breakfast, hard bolid eggs, jerky, kiwi juice, mixed veggies in sour sauce :)

Orton system update

 Multiple contacts, is this best they have!! I'm going in my fighter Astroliner stand back!!!

Cleaning

While on the mission I took the time to clean my captains bunk

The Orton System

Met up with the crew, we are orbit The planet Christi. Weird name but anyways no signs of trouble... Crews going about there business. I wish I had someone to text :/ 

Lennon station

Currently on my way to the Astroliner.... Long flight in my fighter. Resting at Lennon station in the andromeda star system. Getting up in a few hrs and completing my travel to the Orton system. Apparently the lab rat mafia is misbehaving... What eves I want Ice cream! 

Pooped

Worn out, mission this week coming up 

Service

Go up early ran my mile. Took my fighter in for check and service. Thanks to my uncle every things covered. I do miss my old rapier but this one is more relaxing. Lucky the government of Mars gave these to us. I do miss mittens and Casey fixing our rides. Now I have the dealers do it. Scary how things change.. Well at least the Astroliner doesn't have to goto a dealer.

Motivation

Don't know why or I don't want to admit it but I'm burnt out. Keeping multiple jobs and trying to keep my ship afloat is taking a small toll. I need to stay strong to lead my teams on my star ship and at my regular job... I just need to rest for a long period and juice in the morning I'll be good.

Looking up

IEnd to a good weekend, downloading Attack on Titan, Astroliner is docked, no major damage sustained. Nonot went on his date. I'm home alone with a bucket of pop corn and a sodi pop it's show time. 

:3 

Things are starting to look up,