In this corner I still sit

Ugh, I feel like poop. Been drinkin all night by myself and still wondering what my purpose is.... Why can't I be happy? Yea I'm a captain for a star ship and I have a good job, my own place. Why am I so miserable? I've been cheated on, lied to and I'm still stupid enough to let myself get hurt. Space is a very lonely place and I don't know where I'm gonna go from here. I feel so empty like the fuel tank in the Astroliner