Do or die

I've been home for a few months now. I've seen my star ship, but something is wrong. I don't fit into the seat any more. I've gained 75lbs, and I feel sick every day. I want this to go away, but it won't on its own. Tomorrow I'm going to make that change. All diet 100 days, nothing but juicing, apples, egg whites. I have to do this or else ill lose everything. And everything ain't that much. But it's all I have. It's time to stop being afraid of the demon within.