Change is coming I hope

She ripped me apart, killed me, damn near destroyed my space ship.. And I still find myself thinking about her -.- glad summers almost here

Coffee all around

So everyone at my work has been kinda down so I'm surprising everyone with some yum coffe from Starbucks 

Emotional

I visited the cemetery where my grand parents are. Saw the rudest thing a father and his daughter visiting his wife's grave. He said they wish they had a cure for brain cancer. I wanted to tell him it's my fault that the cure almost happened but I failed to save the one I love who almost achieved the cure before our down fall. 

I feel guilt for many because she could of help millions. But the Mafia took the most precious thing from me . 

Flogged

Finally made it to my bed... So tired, working a real job and trying to be a space captain is tiring as all hell.

I have to keep going people are counting on me. 

Clearing a path

Looking at what I've done this past weekend. I've helped everyone out, I'm tired and I don't want to sound selfish but I think I'm going to take some me time. Maybe watch a movie tonight or something.  I know Colleen is and at me because I missed her birthday party the other night. Sigh -.- wish I could be everywhere at once. 

Hopefully life will slow down so I can enjoy it. 

Leveled up

So safe to say mittens was right. The waiting makes u stronger. Been trying to move on and fear really doesn't stop me. I just feel stronger every time I take that chance. Good ending or not.

But I will always protect the ones I care about even if I have to scarifice myself 

Tired

Oh I'm tired.... Made some instant chicken, big bottle of water next to me, movie on the video screen. All by my self... Funny thing is the damn robots got a date on a Saturday night... 

Wild day

Been a wild day, in a good way. I've managed to help every person I came across today. Some where like your so patient, wow your a good people person... And so on. I keep asking my self am I? I know I shouldnt because of what I've accomplished. 

I still keep asking my self do u really want to keep working in space? Your captain of a star ship with really no crew. You work at a replicator place just to have something to do. Everyone U work with has there own families and lives. When they come home they have something to talk aboot. They always ask me what did u do last night or did u see the game? And they still done believe half of the things I've been through. Maybe I'll always belong amongst the stars. Maybe it's better to just be different from everyone else. But i just want to fit in. 

Whateves, yes it's lonely, yes I'm bored, just going to continue to help others and do me. Okay now it's time to do some cloth shopping. It's nice not needing and boomerang to put on your belt.