Be awhile

Just opened my blog up.. Looking at what I've been through and looking at this diary I don't understand why I'm still here. I guess I like being abused by people. Between Kat, Petra and all the others. 

Think this is going to lead up to climax of my being.  I guess my only goal left in life, is to help as many people and save as many people, there are no more enemies, so this time I will clean it good, oil it well practice with it every weekend at the range and uses its power to end my own, this time it won't jam, and no one can stop me. Colleen won't be there to tackle me and mittens won't be there to take it away from me. 

The next 6month are going to be a wild ride. 

Chang.