Donut

Mmmmmm space donuts!!!! Mmmmm sprinkles

The hanger bay

So I was drinking yea no big suprise!!!!! I put my bottle next toy space ship work they look alike!!!!

Time to keep drinking wooooooo

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I feel like a bomb that's ready to go off, there's a Demon inside of me

Space dock

Everything went smooth tonight, back on the station everyone else went home I just stopped at the store got me a bottle of my buddy cake. Now I'm gonna attempt to use this time machine, hopefully it goes backwards but usually only forward :(

.........0.o...........

Bored out of my mind....... Oh let's see what's up on social network.....

Casey posted on lynsyes wall,"hahaha I pee'd on your wall" with a photo of a dog peeing on a barn

Mittens posted a photo of flowers from Jeffery "love you babes!" the flowers sit on her work bench surrounded by grease and wrenches.

Mark posted: I'm hungry I want to place an online order for white castle when we jump back to earth!!!

Missy posts: lynsyen I love you baby!!! With a posted photo of edible arrangements. Nicely cover chocolate Strawberries and pineapples.

As for me...... To depressed to post anything besides I want to kill my self. All this lovie dubbie shit.... When's it going to be my turn.......

I don't know how many times I write this in my journal :(. Something's gotta give it's just been a bad year all around. My ex cheated on me, tried to fall in love with a girl in the military and she ended up dating a moron from the alphas, won't talk about mittens, that was my own fault :\. And yea here I sit... In my captains chair com pad in hand bottle of water to my left and saturn in front of me........ Yea I'll shut up now and cry in my chair....

I can here Casey or Mittens Cry Baby!!!!!!!!

Orbiting Saturn

Orbiting Saturn.... Yawn...... No signs of the Lab Rat Mafia so far. Colleens down on Titan with her team. All goes well, Casey and Mark are playing are with NONOT and I got first watch up on the bridge. It's a little lonely, wish I had someone to share this view with. Jupiter looks better in my opinion.

Gods I feel so empty and alone up here..... I look into my mineral water bottle wonder what it would be like to have someone to care about.

Dark matter

How do you control something you don't know how to control? We've been flying missions for the past several months. The current mission "hallows" had been a challenge, not matter how much I fight to hid my feelings it tears me apart, the crew has begun to notice a change in me and the way I act. I want to be a better person all around but I feel so damanged. The last accident I had wasnt her fault it was mine. How come I can pull the trigger to kill and enemy but I can't when I feel something's write?

Funny just the other day a family came up to me in the food court they sat with me as I ate and the said we where on the Golden Wing freight liner. You saved our lives, can we do any thing for any thing at all? I looked at them and said just be happy for your selves and live every moment with each other. Then I told them don't be like me. I do everything I can to save life but i can't save myself from myself. I always hurt my self by not making the right decisions and this time it hurts more than any thing and I don't know what to do. We fly again at 19:00 hrs and I'll be suited I'll be ready but my heart will never be right. Honestly I told Mark I hope I get shot down today, and I say it every day but I seem to still survive it everyday. If the Astroliner was a person I think it would feel the same way. We both feel empty and beaten inside. It's been running for of 35 years I've been running for 29 years some times I wonder if I need to take a break. But if I did I would just spend it alone so what's the point no one like to do what I do. And with my luck I'd get called to action.

I just feel lost.....

Amazing Grace

I once was lost, but now I'm found :)

Save me

So I'm sitting here just blah sitting right next to my rocket..... Blah I need a drink

Lost

Being a space captain and being in battle is one thing. I know the mission I know what's the right call is.

But when I'm home I don't know what im suppose to do? I feel lost, no one to talk to. Everything is not right, I feel as if I've lost my humanity somewhere along the way. The said lifes a journey I feel I've been on this journey solo. Maybe it's time for the Astroliner to be decommissioned. And the team be set free, maybe I need to be debriefed for good.

This may be the end of Jupiter 7

Depression

Ain't it a bitch, being a space captain is great, I have friends, I have a home. But i feel so empty inside

Saturn 5

Images top secret

Saturn 5

Rescue of Saturn 5 brings bad news of lab rat mafia's new weapons

ISE station

Home at last, what's left of it. All alone as usual. And I have to get up in the morning for work.

I wish I had someone to cuddly with besides my pillow :( it's cold this time of year on the space station

Drama!!!!!!!

Ever been so mad over an ex girl friend it's hard to fly your space ship, just crazy!!!!!!

Narf

Random things on my hatch

Shields up what!?!?!!!!!

Casey just repair the last shielding that was damaged we should be ready to go. Man I've got a head ache

St Clare last day

Last day St Germaines, ammo getting low, Casey exhosted, marks out of cigarets and I'm ugh tired, missions almost over

Woooo been busy

Out at Saturn 5 station having some drinks

Cigars

Found my fav cigars on the moon at lunar so happy, usually only find em on mars maybe the space station but this is awesome

Project VFW

Well hard day supporting our veterans now I'm on earth getting my drink on and grub on

The truth

When your life is a fantasy

How do you deal with reality

Screwed over by the big green weenie again

So I was planing in having another fun weekend.... Yea cut short because some ass hole hates what government is charging him for taxes. So he blows up half of Carris Space Station... Wtf I was supose to goto the beach, maybe have a drink work on my tan..... Whateves this is my life and it's ending one second at a time.... :(

What a weekend

Short week ahead hopefully followed with another great weekend, just need to survive it

Whoa

Went to a party last night on lvl 53 of the station, damn good time!!!!

Yet again

I've woke in a corner with multiple bottles of liquor. What's going on??

Barf

Game stinks so bad I turned to baseball and started working out

Saturday night

Yay no missions tonight, no emergencies, just me and football. Wish i had someone to watch it with mark and Casey went to mars, mittens is out with Jeffery. And here I sit in the astroliner watching tv on the main monitor,

Aftermath

Omg, what happen last night! I woke up in the corner of my appartment. There's like 4 bottles of cake lying around holy molie! I need to stop drinking, I should go check my captains log I wonder what I wrote?