Say what you need to say

Title says it all, no matter what, speak your mind and tell her the truth. She'll listen, and you'll save her from harm and be able to help her gain her strength back.

Main goals to help her re bond with her family

Become an Officer

Smile again like she used to

And help her shoot straighter

Setting up the perfect shot

Ok so I'm going to do it, I'm going to throw everything on the line, my star ship included. My crews behind me, my close friends. It's not I don't have a choice, it i have to do it to save someone's life. I'm not going to fail I'm going to say everything from my heart. It will fire like the ION cannon on the Astroliner.

I'm going to free myself of this curse I've cursed myself with. Gods give me strength. For what I'm about to do with effect everything in my life and may shift things to an in shiftable position

I don't fear the conversation I will have I fear me after the conversation. I fear that I may not survive the blast. I'll survive the initial explosion. But the fall out my kill me. The true test will begin soon, and when the time is right I will open fire and hope I can do it. Please let this work and please let this free of my own curse, or if I fail please end me quicker rather than a slow death.


God Speed

.........0.o...........

Bored out of my mind....... Oh let's see what's up on social network.....

Casey posted on lynsyes wall,"hahaha I pee'd on your wall" with a photo of a dog peeing on a barn

Mittens posted a photo of flowers from Jeffery "love you babes!" the flowers sit on her work bench surrounded by grease and wrenches.

Mark posted: I'm hungry I want to place an online order for white castle when we jump back to earth!!!

Missy posts: lynsyen I love you baby!!! With a posted photo of edible arrangements. Nicely cover chocolate Strawberries and pineapples.

As for me...... To depressed to post anything besides I want to kill my self. All this lovie dubbie shit.... When's it going to be my turn.......

I don't know how many times I write this in my journal :(. Something's gotta give it's just been a bad year all around. My ex cheated on me, tried to fall in love with a girl in the military and she ended up dating a moron from the alphas, won't talk about mittens, that was my own fault :\. And yea here I sit... In my captains chair com pad in hand bottle of water to my left and saturn in front of me........ Yea I'll shut up now and cry in my chair....

I can here Casey or Mittens Cry Baby!!!!!!!!

Middle of duh week!

Ugh, can't wait to get back to my ship, I think i have a crush on a girl again, so not cool. I need to stay away from females that don't want to go on adventures. I'd know, well me and mittens are going on a detox r&r weekend, she's leaving Jeffery at home and where gonna chillz and sneak a few drinks and talk aboot the old days. It's funny, me, mark and mittens where all in basic training together, crazy. All well good times! :)

15 hrs into the mission

Omg long day and only had 3 hrs of sleep last night, finally got a break, shower, chow. Wish I had someone to lay back and watch the stars with. I guess I forgot how lonely it gets out here. Just me and the ship everyone else took off. I've walked the perimeter not much out here.

I wish I had someone to miss, I feel like an empty shell. And brain dead

Post emergency call!!!

Yawn...... Well I must say that was fun easy rescue operation while eating deep dish is a great thing. Everyone only sustained minor injurys.

Funny I met a man and he said to me" what's troubling you?"

I'm like well this mission and all the laser beams every where would be a start!

Then hes like what's her name

And I swear I almost stopped the ship mid battle, I'm like Who is this guy???

He's like don't waste your time as Mittens screams hard right!!!!!!

Yea so it was an interesting night, oh yea and mittens thanks for the talk and pizza :)

Job board update

Due to slow economy and solar flares sol system will be slowing production for the next 3 weeks......"wtf..."

Maybe I should of been a dentist, this whole captain of a space ship is getting olddddddd..........

NONOT says I need to get a girl friend
Mark says I just need to get €^*%
Casey slaps Mark

I need to do something I'm tired of pacing the board walk in the mall :( wish I could pace it with someone :)

I'm really falling from cloud 9~

Can't sleep

Ugh can't sleep... I think I'm an emotional mess sometime yea I guess its the last thing a captain should be, but damn. I've been cheated on, lied to by lovers and friends, stabbed in the back, things ripped away from, how am I still standing, what keeps me going?

Gods help me If I become a monster, I never want to be a monster or bad guy, I don't like to hurt people but they like to hurt me :(.

I think I'm gonna take a litte drive around Jupiter or something maybe Saturn

End of a great night!

Well I must say I had fun! Haven't had a good time like that and our driver Joe was amazing!!!! Totally cool guy, I will call apon them again. Well I had no worries got to dance finally!!!

Sad to say it's over and now back to my boring life. Sitting here waiting for work to show up on a stupid job board.

The coolest thing I did see tonight was a shooting star from the bus window. I wished to just be happy, I don't want love, I just want to be happy and be safe. The Astroliner is all I got left, everything else has been ripped or taken away from me.

I just wanna be me :)

Friday morning blues

So when u break up with someone change the combination to get in your home or apartment.

Apparently I'm not ment to be happy, I'm happy with my space ship but everything else stinks. Captain Kirk never had problems like this.....

Maybe today on the job board someone will post a suicide run!
"help dreadknot attacking station pirates are pillaging please help!"

Just throw me in front of a bus :(

Besides that NONOT sent me a txt last night

"hey I met this ATM machine she's a really cutie!!!

My response: o.O "gold digger!!"

Long night ahead

So yea..... Aqward. I guess when u try to meet someone on common grounds are the grounds really common? My Ex is here and I'm lost, angry, hopeless, happy, sad confused and really wish kinda maybe someone would attack the station......

:| I don't know some time I wish someone would just step up and save me. It's like when we found the astroliner on that planet, I might never of made it out of there what then?

I'm just confused i guess, especially that I've been told I'm a heart less person. Next time a freighter full of kids is in trouble i won't stop the side winder torpedo from hitting it. Actually I will I'll put on my space suit and jump in front of it. Gods why do I end up like this every night,

Someone save me :| "please"

Wow the moon is really close tonight