Dreams

Had the best dream I think I've ever had with Kat. It was New Year's Eve, our family & friends came together, everyone one had a great time, me and her even salsa'd in front of everyone :) good food and people, and me, Kat, Mark,Casey, Jeffery and Mittens all had a photo taken together. It was the couple photo just like when we all went to Disney. I hope this dream come true. I love her so much that. She's always on my mind all the time and I know I'm the right one for her. I know she'll better me and I can help her on her own journey. Gods I miss my baby 

Lonely yet again

Mittens calls it the luv bug bit me, Colleen says I need to drink about it, Mark & Casey better than having a baby.... It's like I can't wait for the night so I can close my eyes to dream about Kat... She's all I can think about. I love her, but I really don't know how she feels about me... It's been so long I fear she forgot who I am. She once told me your not a good man, your a great one. I don't feel so great when I fail everyone around, especially when everyone is getting hurt because of me & my ship... I'm waiting to meet the leader of the Lab Rat Mafia... Her name I heard in a whisper it starts with an R that's I could make out when I was a POW...

Kat I miss u so so so much, I can't eat or sleep with out you.... I've never felt like this towards someone ever. It's like a curse, to love someone so much and you don't know how they feel about you or think.... My fear Is that she has forgotten me, and she will return to her past.. How can I move on or live with that situation. I know my crew will push me to move on and ill never be the same, what will I become ... A monster, a mean person, I don't want to be either one, I want to be happy and next to Kat the rest of my life. I want to grow old with her and let her hold the remote control..

All I know is that when we dream we aren't that far away from each other. 

Lunch time

Order Mediterranean food.... I miss Mac and Cheese nights with Kat :(

Oh I miss her so bad, I can't wait till she's out 

Long day..

All I could think about was Kat. And I had no one to talk to about her :( i miss her so much. Makes me want to cry :/ any day I should be getting a call, is just tearing me apart waiting for her.i really no how a military family feels. And I'm the one in the military :( Kat I love you honey where ever u are I'm sitting by the phone waiting for you sweet heart.

Weird start

Weird start to the day.... My mom scolds me from mars, oh you don't work hard enough?? Tried cleaning the apartment, no luck. I'm missing Kat like more than norm today.... Damn near got killed twice on the way to work.... I miss my baby :( feeling sad today but I'm trying to keep up high spirits for the team. :/ my heart feels heavy today :(

-.-

I miss my baby.. About to fall asleep and dream of her, Kat I love you

Rainy evening

Sitting here watching the rain fall missing my baby... We'll be together again soon.

I love you Kat, I miss u so much, I can't wait to hold you again baby. Hopefully soon :)

Coded message!!

I'm sitting working on my fighter, in side of the Astroliner... My phone starts to ring..... It's Kats voice, I say am I dreaming?? She like know its me babe. Before I could ask she's like, I only have a minute write this down. Jump coordinates 3. 56 14 511, it's where she's located, her rehab station. Those coordinates are out near Neptune. No one goes out that way because there's nothing there. Neptune is basically a giant water/gas planet. It's our back up of fresh H2o if we ever need it. But she said she love me and said to jump out and send her sole snail mail.... I've been in a daise since crazy but I love her and it was great to hear her voice. She sounded beaten and tired. It worries me a little but ill have the Astroliner prep for a rescue mission I'm sure Colleen will be armed and ready to drop the bomb. I miss her so much

Counting the days

:) counting the days when Kat will be able to call me. Can't wait to hear her voice, I've dreamed about us twice so. I hope my mind won't play tricks on me. I miss her so much, I want to take her for a walk on that pier. 

Kinda hopping they let me take her for a weekend so I can show her worlds end :)

I know it's a day dream but I want it to be reality. I love her very much I hope she's thinking about me. 

-.-

Oh it's late I'm hugging my pillow pretending its my baby. I miss you honey, I miss you so much, I can't wait for your call this week. I've dreamed about hearing your voice for so long. I love u Kat I'm here baby waiting patiently sweetie :)

VFW

Well just hanging out with some old vets, bs'n everyone's asking where's yur lady at captain?? 

Couch

Sitting on the couch.... Thinking of my baby... I can feel her. I miss her so much..

Business meet :)

Work work work work work.... Sigh I miss my baby, Kat honey I miss you sooo much it's retarded, it's like watching rust rust metal on my ship. I can't wait to hold u baby, and show you all the awesome places were gonna roll. 

Ill always keep my promise.

The futures looking good, the board is set the pieces are moving. Things will begin to fall into place soon.

The Undiscovered Country

My goal

Get outta debt by September: not a problem,

Go after Speed Liner

Narf

Oh I miss my baby. I look at her photo ever day every hour..... I miss Kat so bad, I can only think what she's going through right now.... Once she gets out where going in vacation, I think north first then some place warm and comfy.

My plans are in motion for a better future just need to survive, some of my friends have suffered from mental over load.... I fear that some of us may fall do to being over whelmed. I have my baby on my mind she keeps me sane. First thing I'm gonna do is hug her so hard and kiss her like a fantasy :} 

ZzzZzz

Tired.. Sadish..... I miss my baby.... Laying here waiting to fall asleep... Kat I miss u baby.... When u get out the universe is ours... The one thing that bothers me is I'm afraid to see u again. I know my mind plays tricks on me. But I know we love each other, but what if they like break your mind and u forget me... Well ill break them I guess.

I know it made me sad when I asked u about the time we sat at Huron park, u don't even remember it being with me when we sat on the huge rock watching the sun go down and the fire flies dancing around. 

When you get I will protect u from every evil that tries to hurt you and takes u away. I feel like Link or Mario. My princess keeps getting stolen... Not for long. If anyone dares hell's coming with me. I love you baby I'm counting the days until u call me, :) when u see me again ill be in better shape with the new work outs I've been doing with the team. I just want to get stronger to protect you 

Well I'm off to fall asleep in my lonely apartment earth in view and the moon sitting in the distance... I love you Kat, well be together soon :)

Hate nights alone

Laying in bed starring a photos of and Kat... My heart is heavy knowing I have to wait for that call.... I fear something but I don't know what it is? I feel like I'm marooned on that planet again. Now I'm waiting for rescue... I know it's coming but I'm here all alone :/ gods I miss my baby... I miss her so much, I miss her so bad it's like an addiction that won't leave me alone.. I miss my baby..

Home sweet home

Finally made it back from the Dewitt system. They won't be having problems for a long time :)

 

Came into my apartment kinda lonely.... Kat I miss u babe.... Two weeks sounds like a year for me :( what eves I'm still doing my detox for three weeks. Veggies, yogurt, chi and berrys, gone destroy the plumbing!!

Good ending to the night just miss my baby

Not done yet

Kicking ass and taking names in Dewitt. But realizing that in order to be happy when Kat gets out we need to leave the sol system. We need to leave it all behind. People are just dragging us down.

  The people that will suffer r our close friends. Sucks but it's the truth, can't survive here, not much bad nothing good. Well be able to always come back but just ain't worth it staying.

The longer me and her stay here the more we are going to suffer. Sounds weird but like I said I'm realizing that its the real truth.

         Mittens and Jeffery are going to kill me along with Colleen too. 

Sheep!!!!!

We are herding sheep..... Really sheep in the ship!!!!

Breakfast

Hard boils egg whites, tofu sausage and fake bread with a white sauce.... Gods I miss breakfast with Kat, I remember she surprised me with French toast on our 1 year anniversary, it was expensive but it was amazing, I did take her to mars for dinner on Olympus. Best cheese burgers ever, real meat real cheese. 

That hurt

We hit the deck for hard my ball choked me! Took out 13 hydra cannons.... It's like a shark chasing a dolphin!! Flipping crazy!! What eves were making repairs tomorrow last day in Dewitt System. Time to show them how it's done!!

Note to self can't wait to see my baby these pillows ain't cutting it!!!

Pizza!!!!

I go use the bathroom and Casey pulls us over to get pizza! Great plan!!!

I have to pee

The title says it all!! Yes I'm in middle of a dog fight and yes I have to peeeeeee!!! About to tell Casey or lynsye to throw me there water bottle !!

Communication loss

-.- haven't heard From my baby in three days I'm positive she's been moved off planet now.. While I'm floating out here in the Dewitt System. This morning another set of pirates tried braking our line of defense... Why do they what this sector so bad??? 

Whateves will drop them in there spots... I miss u LKat like a baby misses its blanket :(

Back at the station

Well they gave me a double but I asked for a single, I'm gonna push em close together lol

Fish stixs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have a hydra cannon.... WTF!!!! 

Fish stixs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They have a hydra cannon.... WTF!!!! 

Sitting on the run way

Swaggy, putting up crew photos up

Man I'm tired..... 

Got my baby on the wall too :)

I lover her so much, I just wish we could be together but she needs to keep working on what she's been doing. Ill Always lover her till whatever end happens.

I know I hold a place in her heart, I know I  may come second to something else she may need. But what ever her decision I will honor it.<3

Landed

Well not the best landing but we landed ln Dewitt. Stopped at the local restaurant for breakfast. Strange skies to the west of the station. Not to mention solar storms are picking up out here :/

Urgent message

Soo I get an emergency call from my uncle.... Calypso Station has gone dark? That's in The Dewitt System.... Thursdays gonna get surreal. Time to nut up or shut up

Dreams... :)

Took a power nap and me and my baby went on a trip overseas and watched the surf rolled in.  Great dream for what I can remember and I swear I can almost smell her :}

New directions

Phew long day of cleaning and repairs. The astroliner is all set for this coming weekend in Dewitt. Tomorrow I'm going to install some extra lamps and start to load her up. Then back to my apparent and clean it up. I got tones of laundry :/ 

But on a lighter note, the new 3D printer were getting is going to be a game changer like no other.

I'm going to build a sheild generator with magnets. Things are going to get interesting :)

Didn't hear from my baby today. I'm not sad, maybe a little at least I know she's safe on Mars station. Ill hear from her in two weeks  counting the days :)

Good day :) it's Friday

Started off great my baby called me this morning to say hey and I love you :} she's being moved off planet so I will hear from her in two weeks... Long two weeks :/. But I'll be expecting a call from my baby :)

On a lighter note Cristy my ex has been blowing up my compad. Apparently I'm the biggest asshole on the planet... Well I'm not on earth I live on the station. Soo... Middle finger to ya XD

Holy Toledo Ohio!!!

Tired, sore and were under attack!' This race war down here is nuts!!!! Trying to hold em back. Got some good people holding the line 

Leaving hard dock

Out we go!!

Late night

Mission Viper is in 7 hrs. My minds racing worrying about Kat, I fell asleep on the couch for 45 mins only to wake up screaming in the bath tub.... She must be in a great state of fear, or breaking down. What ever darkness is attached to her came back after me in my night terrors.

I'm back to no sleep and I think I just pulled lower back again.. This ain't going to be fun tomorrow. Gods I hope she's ok. I'm tired of losing the people I care about :( someone's laughing at me somewhere I just know it. Look at the loser lets make his life worse. Lets make him suffer.

Yet I still strive to help others and care for the ones closet to me.  I need to see my baby again..... If she's kept from me I will have my revenge 

Home ....

Just walked into my apartment and on the video screen there's a letter flashing telling me about a new message??? I walked up to it and touched the screen. 

You I are gift has been canceled you are not allowed to contact this person. Monies will be refunded.....

So someone's stopping from talking to my baby

Evil look on face

Job kiosk

Wow this hasn't happened in awhile emergency call for Jupiter 7. Massive infection highland system.... -.- I only have to work tomorrow at 3.... Well jobs are jobs and I know Casey and Colleen will be happy to make some money! Wheels up at 0700, waiting for code name on the mission. I hope I can get some sleep tonight 

Zzzzzzzz

Miss my baby, she called me tonight made her feel relaxed :) I will protect her when we are together gods help me and give me strength.

Miss this :(

I miss ice cream Sundays with my baby :(

I always let her have the cherry :(

Mission Coloma

Working hard holding the line, but with no sleep again :( plus I had an episode last night again. Kinda freaked the team out. Everyone's watching over me which makes me feel good, but at the same

Time I have a major mental issue and I need to solve it soon or I maybe hit rock bottom and I won't be able to recover :/

Into the wind

Ugh feelin sick with the solar sheers. Casey and mark are snuggled up missy and lynsye r the same. Nonots recharging. I'm sitting here in my captains chair, got the seat back and extended. Foot rest up and all alone looking up at a brown dwarf.... I always have the best seat in the house and no one to share it with :( Kat I miss you :(... I know I'll never see you again I miss your kindness and cheerfulness. They always ask me why don't you fear death? Because I'm so lonely nothing hurts :/ I hate my life some times. Well at least the lab rats arnt doing anything stupid.. Nice and quiet listing to Alex goot!

Caloma mission

22hrs & counting down... Sigh reports r calling for heavy resistance.... On a lighter note I got a interesting phone call from Kat. It was kinda like whoa, lot of I love you, hey can u send me this. I wish I didn't do that I wanted to be with you instead I love you then the phone cut off. Soo... Yea... At least she's thinking about me... Wish I could help her :| I know staying away is the right thing to do but. What if I'm the key to make things better?